BREAKING OUT OF MY PRISON CALLED SHAME!
For many years I lived in a prison called shame. Because of the abuse of my childhood, shame was a place I learned to live and grow used to. The bars of this place held me captive and kept me bound. I ate, slept, and became isolated in my prison cell of shame. It was a garment I wore well. I learned how to survive, but not how to live. Staying in my little cell of distrust, fear and wearing my “everything’s okay” mask, not letting anyone get too close, made me feel a bit safer. Shame is a prison that keeps you locked away from the person God created you to be and from fulfilling the destiny He has for you. God wants to blast open those prison doors and set you free! He has done that in my life and here is the key I found that released me from that prison of shame I lived in.
That’s right folks. While I had heard, from the time I was a little girl, that God loved me, I never really believed it. You see, the key to my prison door had already been used to unlock that door and set me free from my prison, but I didn’t know it. I did not know I could walk out of my prison of shame. God had already given me His unconditional love, but I didn’t believe it. I may have known it with a head knowledge, but that was as deep as it went. I did not have a real revelation of it, one that would make me truly believe it. I couldn’t see His unconditional love for me past the shame and so was unable to open the door and get out of my prison.
About 15 years ago, I started hearing more teaching on God’s love for me. I started to realize that there was something about really understanding God’s love for me — that if I could see it and know it – His love could really change my life. I began to ask God to help me see myself as He did, to show me how much He loved me. I began looking up every scripture I could find on how God the Father sees me and what He says about me. WOW! What a change started to happen. The more I began to understand that God did not base how much He loved me — by how good I was, how much I did to try to make myself better, on anything I could do to seem more acceptable — the more free I became. When I began seeing, that when He looked at me, He did not see the mess of my past, but instead He saw the beauty of who I was; I was able to take off that garment of shame I had been wearing. As I began, not only to have just a head knowledge of His great love for me, but to know and see with my heart, my whole being, from deep inside of me that God truly did love All of me, just the way I was, unconditionally, that allowed me to see that the door to my prison cell called shame was unlocked. I could open it and walk out of that prison and I did. I am free to be all God created me to be. I still have to remind myself of this from time to time when I am hit with a reminder of something that happened in my past, but now I know what to do. I take those feelings of shame, regret, pain, hurt, whatever they may be and lay them in God’s lap and He overtakes them with His love and I can see them disintegrate and be dissolved into nothing. God wants to do this for you. He wants you to break out of your prison of shame, defeat, fear, whatever your prison may be. Open yourself to His great love for you. Ask Him to reveal to
you the depth of His love for you, to give you a new picture of how He sees you, of how great is His love for you. Believe it, receive it fully and accept it. It will change your life. I know this to be true!!
Check out this link of things I say over myself taken from scripture that tells how God sees me. It has been a great help to me and will be to you also. Click here.