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Breaking out of my prison called shame.

BREAKING OUT OF MY PRISON CALLED SHAME!
https://i1.wp.com/www.clker.com/cliparts/9/3/1/b/1206578721112928526johnny_automatic_vacant_prison_cell.svg.med.pngFor many years I lived in a prison called shame. Because of the abuse of my childhood, shame was a place I learned to live and grow used to. The bars of this place held me captive and kept me bound. I ate, slept, and became isolated in my prison cell of shame. It was a garment I wore well. I learned how to survive, but not how to live. Staying in my little cell of distrust, fear and wearing my “everything’s okay” mask, not letting anyone get too close, made me feel a bit safer. Shame is a prison that keeps you locked away from the person God created you to be and from fulfilling the destiny He has for you. God wants to blast open those prison doors and set you free! He has done that in my life and here is the key I found that released me from that prison of shame I lived in.

 

HIS LOVE!!

That’s right folks. While I had heard, from the time I was a little girl, that God loved me, I never really believed it. You see, the key to my prison door had already been used to unlock that door and set me free from my prison, but I didn’t know it. I did not know I could walk out of my prison of shame. God had already given me His unconditional love, but I didn’t believe it. I may have known it with a head knowledge, but that was as deep as it went. I did not have a real revelation of it, one that would make me truly believe it. I couldn’t see His unconditional love for me past the shame and so was unable to open the door and get out of my prison.
About 15 years ago, I started hearing more teaching on God’s love for me. I started to realize that there was something about really understanding God’s love for me — that if I could see it and know it – His love could really change my life. I began to ask God to help me see myself as He did, to show me how much He loved me. I began looking up every scripture I could find on how God the Father sees me and what He says about me. WOW! What a change started to happen. The more I began to understand that God did not base how much He loved me — by how good I was, how much I did to try to make myself better, on anything I could do to seem more acceptable — the more free I became. When I began seeing, that when He looked at me, He did not see the mess of my past, but instead He saw the beauty of who I was; I was able to take off that garment of shame I had been wearing. As I began, not only to have just a head knowledge of His great love for me, but to know and see with my heart, my whole being, from deep inside of me that God truly did love All of me, just the way I was, unconditionally, that allowed me to see that the door to my prison cell called shame was unlocked. I could open it and walk out of that prison and I did. I am free to be all God created me to be. I still have to remind myself of this from time to time when I am hit with a reminder of something that happened in my past, but now I know what to do. I take those feelings of shame, regret, pain, hurt, whatever they may be and lay them in God’s lap and He overtakes them with His love and I can see them disintegrate and be dissolved into nothing. God wants to do this for you. He wants you to break out of your prison of shame, defeat, fear, whatever your prison may be. Open yourself to His great love for you. Ask Him to reveal to
you the depth of His love for you, to give you a new picture of how He sees you, of how great is His love for you. Believe it, receive it fully and accept it. It will change your life. I know this to be true!!

Check out this link of things I say over myself taken from scripture that tells how God sees me.  It has been a great help to me and will be to you also.  Click here.
Sharon Hock

Are you thinking yourself to death or to life?

This morning before leaving to lead worship at a church in Chambersburg I help out once a month,  I was listening to Joel Osteen’s broadcast.  He was telling a story that really made an impression on me.  Joel tells the story of a man who was a chronic worrier, always thinking about the worst that could happen to him.  One day at his job he got locked in one of the refrigerated box cars without his radio or cell phone and no one was around.  When he realized he was locked in, he panicked and started yelling and pounding on the door, doing this for hours until his hands were bleeding and he lost his voice.  He knew he was in a refrigerated boxcar where the temperature was usually below freezing.  He began to fear the worse, that he would not make it out and would freeze to death. He must have thought that he would not get out that night alive.  The more he thought about it, the more cold he became until he was shaking from the cold. He found a cardboard box and wrote on it “So cold, body getting numb, these might be my last words”.   The next morning when workers came and opened that steel doors to the boxcar they found him curled up in the corner, dead.  The autopsy report revealed that he had indeed frozen to death.   The amazing thing about this story is that the refrigeration unit in that car was never even on, the temperature was at 61 degrees.   The man died because the thing he feared came upon him even though it was not the truth of what was actually happening. Continue reading