A Resting Place
Have you ever listened to a song and wondered what inspired the songwriter to choose those specific words and tune for that song. There are stories behind the songs you listen to and I wanted to share with you the story behind the title song of my upcoming album “A Resting Place”.
As most of you know, my life growing up was filled with much turmoil, chaos and stress due to the physical, mental, emotional and sexual abuse I experienced as a child. As I grew out of my childhood and teen years and moved into adulthood, I carried the wounds from the past into my adult life. For many years I carried around so much turmoil inside and did not even realize that it was still there. Even after working through much of the wounds of the past and gaining much healing and freedom, there still remained something inside that caused me to still worry and stress about many things.
Around 10 years ago, at my local church I attended, we had a special speaker in from Belize. I don’t remember what the message was about, but the prayer after the message had such a huge impact on me. The speaker had invited people to come up front if they would like to have prayer for anything in their life. I went up for prayer and the speaker’s wife prayed over me. I cannot remember what I ask for prayer for, but this precious woman of God, who did not know me or anything about me, began to pray over me in Spanish. Now I had no idea what she was saying since I did not speak Spanish, so someone began translating to me what she was praying. She told me that she saw all this turmoil inside of me, swirling around and around like a huge storm and that God wanted to take it all away, that God was wanting me to give it all to Him and just rest in Him. That He wanted and could give me complete peace. Well, I had heard most of my life words about resting in God but I had no idea how in the world to do it. I just could not seem to figure out how to let it all go, to truly be able to rest and have peace inside seemed like a dream. I don’t think till that point I even thought it was something that was possible for me have in my life so I just pushed it to the back of my mind and hoped some day, some way, some how, maybe I would learn how to do it. That day, the concept of truly being free from the turmoil inside of me and having peace and rest really stuck with me. Those words impacted me in such a way that I began seeking God on the subject and asking Him to show me what it meant to truly be able to rest in God. As He began to show me what I needed to do in order to truly rest in Him, this song came forth.
What I have learned is that the only way to truly rest in the Father in every way, is by being saturated with His presence. This is not a one time fix solution. Finding rest in God is something that I have to seek every day of my life by seeking His presence every day of my life. When I don’t get in the presence of God, then I find it so easy to fall back into that pattern of worry and care. I’ve dealt with things like insecurity, fears, some depression at times as well as other things as many other people do and every time I am hit with those things it is because I have not been seeking actively God’s presence, I’m not saturating myself with His presence. I’ve neglected my time of just getting alone with Him, of loving on Him and letting Him love on me and not just coming to him with my requests. When getting into the presence of God is about my love affair between God and me and not about anything else, then I have found that makes such a difference in being able to truly leave everything behind and be at peace inside and find that place of rest.
Getting in the presence of God is a large vista to explore and is a subject for another time so I’m not going to go into anymore detail in this blog about it, I’ll talk more of that in my next blog. As I’m writing this I’m seeing that it is something I need to talk about more in detail.
To listen to some of the song click the link here: A Resting Place – short clip. I debated about sharing a sample of this song with you yet since this is not a final mix for this song, (this is one of the songs I redid vocals for today), but really felt like I was to share the story of this song and you need to hear some of it to understand what I’m talking about. I pray it blesses you.
I’d love to hear your thoughts on the song and any comments you have on how you have found your own resting place in God. What has God taught you about how to rest in Him. I think it will be a great place to start the next blog and hopefully we can get a good discussion going.